It was a good day....

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Today was one of the good days. I made it through most of the day without any tears and I really laughed again, several times. When I took my new job and decided to decorate the wall behind my desk, I had no idea what my future held. I walked around Hobby Lobby forever, trying to decide what I wanted and the sign below was the first thing I picked. I had no idea then why I'd need to Stay Brave, but I liked the sign so I bought it. Now every morning when I walk into the office it is one of the first things I see and I'm glad. Even then, God knew I would need it.

I have also been blown away by the number of people I know personally that have either recently battled or are currently battling the same thing I am. Why is this happening to so many people?? How did I never know it was so wide-spread? If I could give you one piece of advice it is to get a yearly mammogram and if you notice even the slightest change, go right then to have it seen about. Better safe than sorry.

I got to be with good friends tonight. People I love, that love me, that make me feel safe. We ate and talked and joked and laughed and it was good to just feel normal again for a little while. Good friends like those are a blessing.

I've put all my Medical info I have thus far into a notebook that I intend to keep organized with all my paperwork for insurances and doctors visits and various pieces of information I'm given. I think keeping it all organized this way helps me feel a little bit more in control and I need that right now.

I have my MRI on Friday at 2:45. They called in some valium for me to take ahead of time because I am extremely claustrophobic and it is already making me anxious. I decided to just take the day off work because there is no way I will be good for anything beforehand and afterward I'll just want to sleep off the meds. I will be very glad when that is over. I only wish I knew when I would get the results.

I am trying to get my room painted before I leave for vacation on Sunday. I really want that project done so that I have a peaceful, happy room to recover in after my surgery.

Tomorrow the family is coming over for July 4th for some pool time and food. I am looking forward to that. More time to just be normal and happy.

I just realized today that I will most likely not be able to help move Jarod back to App on Aug. 3rd & 4th. I'm bummed about that. I was really looking forward to that little trip.

Specifics to pray today:

1. MRI to be clear and the meds to help me not panic
2. Genetic test to be negative.
3. Surgery to be scheduled soon after our return on the 13th.
4. That I can get my room painted and the packing started for our trip next week.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

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  1. UnknownJuly 4, 2018 at 6:21 AM

    Your attitude is fabulous !!! Just remember God has this all planned.

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