Rolling with the punches...

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It was a gorgeous day in Wilmington. I had a good day at work. Scott made burgers on the grill for dinner and then we went to Fort Fisher for a little bit. Actually, that's not how we had planned it. We were going to walk on Wrightsville Beach, but on the way, we got a call from son #3 who works at the Mini Golf at Carolina Beach. He forgot his phone charger...could we bring it to him? So...we changed course and went to Carolina Beach instead. Not five minutes later son #2 called...were we going to drop off son #3's phone charger? Good. Could we grab his basketball shoes out of the van that son #3 took to work and drop them off to son #2 at the church gym by 8pm? So...after dropping off the charger and picking up the basketball shoes...we finally ended up at Fort Fisher to watch the sunset. 

Life often throws you curve balls.  I surely wasn't expecting this one. You may not be able to control your circumstances, but you sure can control how you react to them. I am trying with all my might. I'm still scared. I'd still rather not go through any of what is to come...and to be very honest I am angry. I'm angry that I'm sick. I'm angry at the cancer for invading my body. I'm angry at my body for betraying me. I'm angry it wasn't caught when I first had tests done. But each day is getting a little better. I am ready to get on with it already. The sooner we start, the sooner I'm done. I have a very important wedding to go to mid-January and I don't want to miss it!! 

Today was a day of appointment setting. I have to get blood drawn the 24th, my teeth cleaned the 25th (who knew you had to get your teeth cleaned before chemo?? Weird!), the 30th I meet with the Oncologist and find out the plan, Aug. 1 I have an ultrasound on my ovaries just to be sure they're ok. Just a reassurance, not expecting any issues, and to get base images for when I have them removed after all this other stuff is over with. I can hardly wrap my head around it all and I know there are going to be days when I am just not in the mood to be positive about any of it. Be patient with me on those days. 

I am still very sore and extremely bruised from the procedures I had this week. It's gonna be a while before I can accept any hugs. I will have to politely decline for a while yet. How about a fist bump or just a smile? :) 

I've come home every day from work in pain and completely exhausted from it. Scott has cooked dinner every night. He's my hero! Now tomorrow we've got to get the house cleaned up! It's amazing how quickly that goes downhill! But right now, all I want to do is take my medicine and sleep. Good night loved ones!

Prayer Requests:
  1. Continued healing from my procedures this week.
  2. Upcoming tests on ovaries to be fine.
  3. Pray for me Wednesday when I go to the dentist. That may seem silly but I get SO anxious. I LOVE my dentist. He is a great friend and is wonderful...I just hate to have my teeth cleaned and it hurts my jaw so I stress over it. 
  4. Pray for my family.
  5. Praise...although I am positive for the breast cancer gene, it is the BRCA2 gene and I've been told that is better than having the BRCA1...so Yay I guess! (It still sucks just not as much)
  6. Pray for strength, stamina, bravery and a good attitude for me.
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