Saturday thoughts...
This past Sunday my Sunday School class gathered around, laid hands on me and prayed. Then just before church, our choir prayed for me as well. I cannot tell you what that meant to me. It was a very tough morning and I was emotionally exhausted by the time I got home. This Sunday I will be traveling to The Great Smoky Mountains, to Elkmont Campground, 10 miles above Gatlinburg. I've been camping with my family there my entire life and my boys have grown up camping there nearly every year as well. I never grow tired of it. It's gorgeous. I've spent my life in church, heard many a fantastic sermon, but there is nothing that compares to the sound of the birds singing the sun up, the sun peeking through the canopy of trees, the sound of the water rushing over the smooth boulders in the creek. The sound of nature waking up is amazing and better than any church service I have ever attended. This Sunday, I will be in God's sanctuary.
We've nearly finished packing. It is exhausting. This campground has no electricity and no water hookups at the campsite. There are no cell phone towers. We use a gas camp stove to cook, a solar shower to bathe (I have a very nice tent shower & tub) and we tote our water from the pump nearby (we...as in the boys and Scott, LOL). We also eat very well...low country boil, ribs, steaks...and all before dark because BEARS. I can't wait!
I was so busy packing today I actually forgot about the breast cancer a few times which surprised me because I've not been able to think about anything else since I learned it was there. My new meds for anxiety are going to have to be tweaked a bit. I think tomorrow I shall try only half a pill. I am far too lethargic and sleepy taking a whole one. I still feel nauseous most of the time but it is a little better. Apparently, the way my body deals with extreme anxiety is to make me feel like someone punched me in the gut. Not nice.
The icy cold fingers of fear still grab me unexpectedly every now and then. I am learning to shake it off, asking God to help me.
You'll think I'm crazy for doing this, but today I watched videos of breast surgeries on youtube. I am not a fan of the unknown. I want to know exactly what I'm in for. Instead of making me more frightened, it has made me feel a little better about the outcome.
I am still stressing over the outcome of my MRI. As I said, the unknown makes me imagine all sorts of things. I am praying they call Monday with good results. I will be checking messages frequently. I can drive a couple miles down the mountain to an overlook called Maloney Point and get a cell signal so we will be doing that every couple of hours for sure. I'm also going to change my answering machine message to instruct anyone calling from a Drs. office to please leave me a message with whatever they need to tell me and if they need to make an appointment to just do it and tell me where and when.
We are hoping to leave early tomorrow, but with both Jarod and Taylor working tonight we've not been able to pack the car so it will have to be done in the morning. Our goal is to get to camp before dark so we can see what we're doing.
I don't think I will be updating as often this week since I will not have any internet access at camp, but if I get any results or new appointments I will try to put out a quick note with prayer requests. We will be down in Gatlinburg a few times and probably over to Pigeon Forge as well.
Today's prayer requests:
1. MRI results to be good and to hear those results very soon. (hoping for Monday)
2. Genetic test to be negative for cancer gene.
3. Wisdom as I decide what type of surgery to have.
4. Surgery to be scheduled soon.
5. Meds to be regulated and help me so I can function.
6. Pray for my family.
7. Praise for dear friends who have promised to help me through this.
8. Traveling mercies, no car issues and a wonderful week at camp.
Today's verse:
We've nearly finished packing. It is exhausting. This campground has no electricity and no water hookups at the campsite. There are no cell phone towers. We use a gas camp stove to cook, a solar shower to bathe (I have a very nice tent shower & tub) and we tote our water from the pump nearby (we...as in the boys and Scott, LOL). We also eat very well...low country boil, ribs, steaks...and all before dark because BEARS. I can't wait!
I was so busy packing today I actually forgot about the breast cancer a few times which surprised me because I've not been able to think about anything else since I learned it was there. My new meds for anxiety are going to have to be tweaked a bit. I think tomorrow I shall try only half a pill. I am far too lethargic and sleepy taking a whole one. I still feel nauseous most of the time but it is a little better. Apparently, the way my body deals with extreme anxiety is to make me feel like someone punched me in the gut. Not nice.
The icy cold fingers of fear still grab me unexpectedly every now and then. I am learning to shake it off, asking God to help me.
You'll think I'm crazy for doing this, but today I watched videos of breast surgeries on youtube. I am not a fan of the unknown. I want to know exactly what I'm in for. Instead of making me more frightened, it has made me feel a little better about the outcome.
I am still stressing over the outcome of my MRI. As I said, the unknown makes me imagine all sorts of things. I am praying they call Monday with good results. I will be checking messages frequently. I can drive a couple miles down the mountain to an overlook called Maloney Point and get a cell signal so we will be doing that every couple of hours for sure. I'm also going to change my answering machine message to instruct anyone calling from a Drs. office to please leave me a message with whatever they need to tell me and if they need to make an appointment to just do it and tell me where and when.
We are hoping to leave early tomorrow, but with both Jarod and Taylor working tonight we've not been able to pack the car so it will have to be done in the morning. Our goal is to get to camp before dark so we can see what we're doing.
I don't think I will be updating as often this week since I will not have any internet access at camp, but if I get any results or new appointments I will try to put out a quick note with prayer requests. We will be down in Gatlinburg a few times and probably over to Pigeon Forge as well.
Today's prayer requests:
1. MRI results to be good and to hear those results very soon. (hoping for Monday)
2. Genetic test to be negative for cancer gene.
3. Wisdom as I decide what type of surgery to have.
4. Surgery to be scheduled soon.
5. Meds to be regulated and help me so I can function.
6. Pray for my family.
7. Praise for dear friends who have promised to help me through this.
8. Traveling mercies, no car issues and a wonderful week at camp.
Today's verse:
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