Blessings...
I've had a good day. My dear friend Lucrece came over this morning with her son and we swam in the pool for a couple hours. It was really great to see her and I really enjoyed it. It has been a gorgeous day so far!
My parents are coming on August 31st and staying for the month of September. It will be great to have them here. I just wish they were coming for a vacation and not to help take care of me. But at least I know what to expect now from chemo so I'll know what days I can function so we can do something fun and what days I can't. My next treatment if bloodwork goes well on Monday will be the 27th, so hopefully, by the time they get here on the 31st I will be feeling better and we can have a little over a week to spend together before the next round.
I'm going to ask the nurse on Monday if there are any other meds they can give me to help with the nausea. If I can keep that at bay I will be SO much better off.
Today the Neulasta has kicked in and my back aches something fierce. I guess that's a good sign that my bone marrow is making new blood cells so I can't complain too much.
I can't stop rubbing my head...for three reasons really. One, it feels WEIRD to have a buzz cut, Two, my scalp aches, Three, it itches! Every time I rub it I'm reminded of how the boy's heads used to feel when I buzzed their hair. Taylor, in particular, used to fall asleep when I rubbed his head. Sweet memories. Scott and I are twins now, although I currently still have more hair than him, and it's also silver. I had no idea how much silver I had until now. I'll be fixing that when my hair finally grows back again!
I got the sweetest cards today, as I do most every day now, and I want you all to know how much it boosts my spirits. I cannot thank you all enough, truly. My wall of hope is growing every day!
This next week school starts here. It will be the first start of school I have not been a part of in 10 years here in Wilmington. It feels strange. I really love my job at the Tech Help Desk and I miss my coworkers but I definitely made the right decision to not work during this journey. There's no way I could have done so. To all you women who did work while going through chemo, you are Super Women!!
Yesterday, Taylor and I went to CVS to pick up a couple things and it was the first time I have gone out with my buzz cut. I wore a hat. It is also the first time someone has looked at me with what seemed like pity. The lady at the checkout counter was overly nice to me and apologized that I had to wait in line while some woman ahead of me complained about her CVS card not giving her good enough discounts. I don't like that look...the look people give you when they learn you have cancer and you can just tell they are thinking that you're going to die. Well, I've got news for them. I will die one day, but it won't be from this. This I can beat. This could be much, much worse, but it isn't. It won't be easy but I've no doubt I'll win. I do understand though. I used to think the same way. I had no idea you could survive this. I had no idea you could be cured. I knew so little about it. If someone you love is going through this, do your research, understand what they are facing, what the treatments do, how they work, what you can do to make it easier for them and help them fight. I thank God daily that I have family and friends who are willing to help me fight this demon and win!
Speaking of family...my husband is the best there is hands down. All I have to do is say, I think I could eat this, or I think this might help and he is off to get it immediately. He makes me feel loved and beautiful even at times when I know I have never looked worse. He has cooked, cleaned, worked, held my hand, comforted me when I was in tears and waited in waiting rooms for hours. I love him so much. I cannot imagine trying to do this alone.
I'll stop rambling now. My hubby is back from the store to get me more Ensure and Cream of Chicken Soup. Here are today's prayer requests:
My parents are coming on August 31st and staying for the month of September. It will be great to have them here. I just wish they were coming for a vacation and not to help take care of me. But at least I know what to expect now from chemo so I'll know what days I can function so we can do something fun and what days I can't. My next treatment if bloodwork goes well on Monday will be the 27th, so hopefully, by the time they get here on the 31st I will be feeling better and we can have a little over a week to spend together before the next round.
I'm going to ask the nurse on Monday if there are any other meds they can give me to help with the nausea. If I can keep that at bay I will be SO much better off.
Today the Neulasta has kicked in and my back aches something fierce. I guess that's a good sign that my bone marrow is making new blood cells so I can't complain too much.
I can't stop rubbing my head...for three reasons really. One, it feels WEIRD to have a buzz cut, Two, my scalp aches, Three, it itches! Every time I rub it I'm reminded of how the boy's heads used to feel when I buzzed their hair. Taylor, in particular, used to fall asleep when I rubbed his head. Sweet memories. Scott and I are twins now, although I currently still have more hair than him, and it's also silver. I had no idea how much silver I had until now. I'll be fixing that when my hair finally grows back again!
I got the sweetest cards today, as I do most every day now, and I want you all to know how much it boosts my spirits. I cannot thank you all enough, truly. My wall of hope is growing every day!
This next week school starts here. It will be the first start of school I have not been a part of in 10 years here in Wilmington. It feels strange. I really love my job at the Tech Help Desk and I miss my coworkers but I definitely made the right decision to not work during this journey. There's no way I could have done so. To all you women who did work while going through chemo, you are Super Women!!
Yesterday, Taylor and I went to CVS to pick up a couple things and it was the first time I have gone out with my buzz cut. I wore a hat. It is also the first time someone has looked at me with what seemed like pity. The lady at the checkout counter was overly nice to me and apologized that I had to wait in line while some woman ahead of me complained about her CVS card not giving her good enough discounts. I don't like that look...the look people give you when they learn you have cancer and you can just tell they are thinking that you're going to die. Well, I've got news for them. I will die one day, but it won't be from this. This I can beat. This could be much, much worse, but it isn't. It won't be easy but I've no doubt I'll win. I do understand though. I used to think the same way. I had no idea you could survive this. I had no idea you could be cured. I knew so little about it. If someone you love is going through this, do your research, understand what they are facing, what the treatments do, how they work, what you can do to make it easier for them and help them fight. I thank God daily that I have family and friends who are willing to help me fight this demon and win!
Speaking of family...my husband is the best there is hands down. All I have to do is say, I think I could eat this, or I think this might help and he is off to get it immediately. He makes me feel loved and beautiful even at times when I know I have never looked worse. He has cooked, cleaned, worked, held my hand, comforted me when I was in tears and waited in waiting rooms for hours. I love him so much. I cannot imagine trying to do this alone.
I'll stop rambling now. My hubby is back from the store to get me more Ensure and Cream of Chicken Soup. Here are today's prayer requests:
- Blood work on Monday to be good.
- More nausea meds to help me next time.
- Praise for Taylor's job.
- Praise for Jarod's job starting back. He likes his new coworkers and his apartment and is looking forward to his classes beginning on the 21st.
- Pray for Aimee Darrow as she starts back to soccer and classes at Mount Olive. We love her dearly!
- Praise for all the people who have brought us good food, love, and gifts!! We love you!!
Today's Verse:
Amy, Thinking of you from miles away. All of your family are fighters and I have no doubt that you're going to beat this thing. I'm so glad that Landon and Diane will be there with you for a month...there's nothing like a parents love to lift your spirits and make things better. I'll be following you each day with prayers....Susan Ketchum Shawbitz (Astec)
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to bringing you those hugs that Daddy promised you. See you soon. Love you! Mom
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