His Eye is on the Sparrow...

-
I have had a bit of a rotten day. Last night, after our short walk on the beach I decided I reeeally wanted a chocolate milkshake from Bruster's. It was a HUGE mistake. I am a little lactose intolerant to begin with...add to that the fact that chemo attacks your digestive system and you have a real recipe for disaster. Yep, up half the night sick as a dog. Today I feel rotten and bloated. My nose keeps bleeding too which is annoying since it runs allll the time now and I keep having to blow it and then it bleeds again. I just feel like I want to crawl out of my skin today and my head will not stop itching! Someone, please remind me of this day if I even consider eating anything so heavily dairy in the next six months!!

I did manage to float in the pool for about 30 minutes today and that was nice. It has been another gorgeous day. I had been hoping to try and make it to Sunday School but that didn't happen since I felt so rotten this morning...maybe next week!

Another chemo side effect I am just now becoming aware of is chemo mouth. You see chemo attacks the fast-dividing cells in your body so aside from attacking the cancer cells, it also attacks those in your mouth, mucus membranes, digestive track and such. So, my tongue is now swollen, red and sore, as is my throat, and this is why my nose keeps bleeding too. I can combat this by washing my mouth out with baking soda and water three times a day and I have been doing that, but apparently not enough. Whine, Whine, Whine. Ok, I'm done. It could be worse.

Sitting in the house alone tonight I just broke out singing "His Eye is on the Sparrow". I love that song and even though I am very raspy it made me feel better. "Why should I feel discouraged? Why should the shadows come? When Jesus is my portion My constant friend is He. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me." I am really missing singing every Sunday already. It has been so much a part of who I am for so many years. My vocal chords are not happy campers right now, but my spirit feels better. Time to go gargle I think.

I've received some wonderful, beautiful, thoughtful gifts the past couple of weeks. Two quilts, a scarf, a monogrammed blanket and Tshirt that says Faith over Fear on it. All given to me by very special people in my life. I do feel loved and I do feel your prayers. I absolutely hate that this disease has caused the people I love distress. Please know that I love each of you and pray for you each night, for God to hold you close, calm your fears and ease your worries.

Tonight's Prayer Requests:

  1. Please pray for my blood tests tomorrow to be normal.
  2. Please pray for the mouth & throat soreness to ease up.
  3. Please pray for my family.
  4. Please pray for me to be strong, patient, courageous and positive.
Today's Verse:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Music Within Us

-
Image
The Music Within Us Johann Sebastian Bach's life was marked by profound personal tragedy. He lost his young daughter, then three sons, and later his wife. Despite remarrying, he and his second wife, Anna Magdalena, endured the heartbreaking loss of four more daughters and three sons—11 beloved children in total. Many researchers have pondered how Bach managed to cope with such profound loss. How did his spirit not break, how did his heart keep beating, and most intriguingly, how did he continue to compose? Bach's resilience and creativity stemmed from his deep faith. At the beginning of each score, he inscribed 'Lord help me,' and at the end, 'Soli Deo Gloria' ('Glory to God Alone'). For Bach, music was a form of prayer, a sacred dialogue between man and God. Listening to Bach’s compositions invites you into this profound conversation, a testament to the enduring power of faith and music. In the ancient times of the Bible, the Levites held a unique and s...
Read more

Let Me Tell You About This Man I Love...

-
Image
Sometimes, you just have to stop and recognize the amazing people in your life, and today, I want to take a minute to tell you about my husband. He is good to the core—fiercely loyal, endlessly kind, deeply loving, honest to a fault, effortlessly funny, incredibly driven, and insanely talented. Am I biased? Probably. But is it 100% true? Absolutely. And would anyone who really knows him agree? Without a doubt. He never stops thinking about his calling—always creating, learning, and discovering. I have no idea how he does it! I’ve often wished I had even half of his relentless drive—and his level of patience. Most nights, you can find him in his home office, creating click tracks, soundtrack videos, and discovering new music to bring to his ministry. We are opposites in many ways, yet so much alike in others—like most couples who balance each other out. I thrive on spontaneity, love changing things up, and admittedly have a quick temper. He, on the other hand, is calm, cool, and collect...
Read more

Promise Me...

-
Image
A friend recently posed a thought-provoking question on Facebook: "If you woke up today knowing it would be your last day on earth, what would you do? Who would you spend your time with?" This question made me pause and reflect, as many of her posts do. She is incredibly kind, true to herself regardless of others' opinions, unafraid to try new things, and extremely intelligent and I admire her. Thanks friend. There is something I want everyone to know. I want my sons and their wives, my beautiful daughters-in-love to know. I want my future grandchildren, great-grandchildren, and all future generations to understand this without a shadow of a doubt. If you're reading this blog somewhere out there in the future, know that if there is one core message in this blog, this is it. Please, read this. All of you. Promise me that if you don't know God in this way, you will think about it deeply. If you are struggling because the church has treated you or someone you love po...
Read more