Preparing for Battle...

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Tonight, I'm preparing for battle once again. Tomorrow's the big day...Chemo #2 (I hope!) assuming my white blood cells are back up. I woke up with a resurgence of thrush but have gargled many times today with my special mouthwash and it already feels better.  I've been very tired today for some reason so I've just been lazy aside from washing a few loads of clothes and changing the sheets on my bed. I've got everything ready to go tomorrow. I have to be there by 8:30am. I'll have blood work, see the Oncologist, wait for blood work results and then if all is well I will have pre-meds and then chemo. It is weird to pray for something you really don't want but know you need.

I have had the sniffles since the first chemo. Apparently, this is a side effect. It is very annoying. Kleenex with lotion has become my best friend. Speaking of tissue....if you are ever tempted by a tree hugger friend to purchase "tree-free" toilet paper...don't do it. It's actually made of sandpaper.

I think I will be glad when my hair all falls out. What is left is uncomfortable. It is so strange to feel the heat escaping from the top of your head. I bet if you pointed one of those heat cameras at me I'd look like a lit candle! Especially during a hot flash! 🔥🔥🔥

My new mattress comes tomorrow! Yay! Hopefully, it will be here when I get back from chemo. Taylor is off tomorrow so if it comes while I'm gone he's gonna set it up for me. :)

I had a nice long soak in the tub tonight and out of nowhere, I cried. I get overwhelmed when I think about how much further I have to go. I know I've got to just take it a day at a time, but I can't help but want it to be over. I still feel like I'm stuck in some kind of nightmare, but it's real. So, I do my best to not dwell on it. I'm only human, so I allow myself to cry for just a bit, tell God just how I feel about it, and then I suck it back up. It's your prayers loved ones that are holding me up, keeping me going, keeping me strong. I know chances are good that I will have setbacks and when they come I will be upset, angry even, when they do. That is when I will need you to remind me to rest in His grace. That is what I am doing tonight. I pray that God will richly bless each of you this week and never forget that you are loved, not only by me, but most importantly by the Almighty Creator of the Universe!!

Tonight's Prayer Requests:

  1. Pray that my blood work will be good and chemo will be able to go forward tomorrow.
  2. Pray that my new meds will help control the nausea. 
  3. Pray that the rest of my body will be protected from some of the longer lasting side effects of chemo and that it will kill every last evil little cancer cell!
  4. Pray for Scott & Taylor as they take care of me this week. It's not easy sometimes.
  5. Praise for the many people who have brought us food, given us generous gifts, sent cards and prayed for us. We can never thank you enough and praise God for each of you! 
  6. Pray for me to be brave, to stay well, to stay strong and to be positive.
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