Soaking up the normal days...

-
I woke up crying this morning once again. I guess it was a dream, I really don't know. Aside from that today was a pretty good day. I ran a couple errands this morning and then met Ann at the nail salon to have a pedicure. It was so nice and I felt quite spoiled. I haven't done that in a very long time. My feet are happy and my toes are a pretty shade of pink. After that, we stopped by Hobby Lobby. I bought some canvases in the hopes I will feel like painting in between treatments. Then I came home and got in the pool. It has been ages since I was able to get in the pool, either because it rained for 2 weeks solid or because I was recovering from procedures. It was so nice floating there, pretending all is well, soaking up the sun, pretending everything is normal. It's bittersweet.

My wig is in, in the color I asked for, so I have to go by there tomorrow to see if I approve, but other than that I have nothing I have to do aside from clean house a bit. That'll be nice. The calm before the storm. I admit I'm a little freaked out by the wig...but maybe I'll make peace with it eventually.

Friday I report at noon, the surgery is scheduled for 2pm and I should be done by 3pm and able to go home by 4pm. Of course, I am not allowed to eat anything all day so watch out. I am going to be one crabby lady, especially if there are any delays.

I have the biggest assortment of pillows by my bed right now. It's kind of comical. I have three soft little travel pillows, a big wedge pillow, a soft backrest pillow with arms, a body pillow and my bed pillows. My mom is sending me three more special pillows in the mail! I shall be softly supported in every way possible...add my new soft blanket my mom sent and I will be feeling like a princess propped up in bed Friday afternoon! :)

I keep hoping this is all a bad dream and I'll wake up and not have to actually deal with any of this. I've watched a ton of videos of mastectomy surgeries, port placement surgeries, patients getting chemo or talking about chemo. I have this drive to know exactly what they are going to do, how they are going to do it, and why they are going to do it. To understand it makes me feel better. I know most people probably would rather not know but I need to know. Maybe that's weird, but I don't care.

I'm super sleepy tonight because once again I didn't sleep well so I'm going to bed early. Here are today's prayer requests:


  1. Please pray that I will get a good night's sleep.
  2. Please pray that I will stay healthy. I have some slight congestion right now and I surely don't want that to turn into anything.
  3. Praise for sunny days and pool time!
  4. Please pray for my family.
  5. Please pray for our financial needs to be met during this time. I will be out of work for quite a while.
  6. Begin praying for my procedure Friday, that all will proceed on time and that it will all go well.
  7. Please pray for me to be strong and brave and positive.
Verse for today:




Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Music Within Us

-
Image
The Music Within Us Johann Sebastian Bach's life was marked by profound personal tragedy. He lost his young daughter, then three sons, and later his wife. Despite remarrying, he and his second wife, Anna Magdalena, endured the heartbreaking loss of four more daughters and three sons—11 beloved children in total. Many researchers have pondered how Bach managed to cope with such profound loss. How did his spirit not break, how did his heart keep beating, and most intriguingly, how did he continue to compose? Bach's resilience and creativity stemmed from his deep faith. At the beginning of each score, he inscribed 'Lord help me,' and at the end, 'Soli Deo Gloria' ('Glory to God Alone'). For Bach, music was a form of prayer, a sacred dialogue between man and God. Listening to Bach’s compositions invites you into this profound conversation, a testament to the enduring power of faith and music. In the ancient times of the Bible, the Levites held a unique and s...
Read more

Let Me Tell You About This Man I Love...

-
Image
Sometimes, you just have to stop and recognize the amazing people in your life, and today, I want to take a minute to tell you about my husband. He is good to the core—fiercely loyal, endlessly kind, deeply loving, honest to a fault, effortlessly funny, incredibly driven, and insanely talented. Am I biased? Probably. But is it 100% true? Absolutely. And would anyone who really knows him agree? Without a doubt. He never stops thinking about his calling—always creating, learning, and discovering. I have no idea how he does it! I’ve often wished I had even half of his relentless drive—and his level of patience. Most nights, you can find him in his home office, creating click tracks, soundtrack videos, and discovering new music to bring to his ministry. We are opposites in many ways, yet so much alike in others—like most couples who balance each other out. I thrive on spontaneity, love changing things up, and admittedly have a quick temper. He, on the other hand, is calm, cool, and collect...
Read more

Promise Me...

-
Image
A friend recently posed a thought-provoking question on Facebook: "If you woke up today knowing it would be your last day on earth, what would you do? Who would you spend your time with?" This question made me pause and reflect, as many of her posts do. She is incredibly kind, true to herself regardless of others' opinions, unafraid to try new things, and extremely intelligent and I admire her. Thanks friend. There is something I want everyone to know. I want my sons and their wives, my beautiful daughters-in-love to know. I want my future grandchildren, great-grandchildren, and all future generations to understand this without a shadow of a doubt. If you're reading this blog somewhere out there in the future, know that if there is one core message in this blog, this is it. Please, read this. All of you. Promise me that if you don't know God in this way, you will think about it deeply. If you are struggling because the church has treated you or someone you love po...
Read more