Warrior Mode Activated

I saw the cardiologist today. Leading up to this visit I have been very worried and of course, went down several rabbit holes on Google that showed me the worst case scenarios. I can't help it. I'd rather know as much as I can so I can understand what they are telling me when I go to a specialist. It didn't do a lot for my stress levels, and it seems like every morning on my way to work was the easiest time to worry over it. But every day I would hear a song on the radio that would break through my worries and encourage me at just the right time. On the way to my appointment today, I heard Francesca Battistelli singing The Breakup Song... "Fear you don't own, there ain't no room in this story, and I ain't got time for you telling me what I'm not like you know me, well guess what? I know who I am. I know I'm strong, brave, and I am free. Got my own identity. So fear, you will never be welcome here." The perfect song at the perfect moment. G...

Have you ever been driving down the road when out of nowhere you hit a big ol’ pothole? Your tire slams into the hole, jars the whole car and you grab the steering wheel with both hands to keep from swerving off the road. Yesterday, my life hit another pothole. Let me explain… Last week I called my Oncologist because my feet and ankles were swelling. The only reason I even mentioned it was because usually, if my feet or ankles swell, after resting all night they are back to normal, but this wasn’t the case. They were still swollen in the mornings too. He said he didn’t think it was anything to worry about, but since I had taken a chemo drug that is known to sometimes cause heart damage, which could cause swelling, he wanted me to have an echocardiogram. Yesterday afternoon, I got a call from his nurse asking me if I already had a Cardiologist. She said that the echo showed abnormal strain on my heart and so they want me to go see a Cardiologist. Hello, pothole. I didn’t see you comi...