Struggles....

I've been struggling a bit lately with my "new normal". I've tried my best to remain positive. Things could definitely be SO much worse. Yet, I am not the same person anymore...not physically or mentally or spiritually. That's not necessarily a bad thing I suppose in some aspects. And yet...I think it is the physical side of things that I am struggling with the most. I don't mean to sound like I am complaining. I am so very grateful just to be alive! But I am also not the "me" I was before. I have physical limits now that I simply cannot deny. I have pain now that I must learn to live with for the rest of my days. There are days when it really gets me down. I'm not superhuman and some days the positive attitude gives way to weariness. If anything I want anyone reading this, who has had a struggle like mine, to understand there will be days like this when you just don't feel strong enough to face it...days when you just need to crawl up in your Heavenly Father's lap and let Him hold you for a while. And you know what? That's ok! That's normal...you're normal! I will get back up, dust myself off, and press on...but sometimes, we just need to rest. Our Father in Heaven knows our every thought, our every struggle, our every pain. He also sees a future we simply cannot fathom and He's got it all under control. So my child, if you get tired, do not hesitate to spend some time in the Father's lap....pray, cry, sleep, rest...and then you can get back out there and let His light shine through you, encouraging others who may be going through a similar trial. 

Psalm 91:4
"He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection."